Thief of Joy

Often times my mind will drift to things my younger self has said or done. Some memories make me giggle, reminding me that the same silly sense of humor exists, however deep inside. Other times, I cringe. Who knows why we do the things we do? Words have always come fairly easy for me. I…

Growing Pains

Do you remember the worst pain you’ve ever felt? Eight years ago, I opened my eyes in the comfort of my bed and felt something very wrong. My elbows were sore, my knees were stiff, and I couldn’t move my fingers. Later that day, my shoulders started aching and my wrists swelled. In less than…

El Roi & El Shâma

“People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.” –Elisabeth Kübler-Ross Quiet. It’s my most favorite sound. For the past two weeks, I’ve had the most glorious sleep. Coming off a long…

Speaking Life

I am lucky. Throughout the highs and lows, the experiments, the discoveries, and everything in between, I’ve had amazing support. One of our clients has turned into a good friend + accountability buddy. Thinking of gym visits as joyful movement has helped alleviate the dread of exercise, but still – in my quest to find…

Ready, Set…

I began writing this twenty minutes south of Atlanta, preparing to leave my parents’ home. As a college student who’d started coming and going over the holidays, I remember talking to a friend of mine who was ten years older. “Leaving never gets easier,” she said. We started the day around the breakfast table, drinking…

Joy Rebel

There’s a childhood song that bounced around my head the other day: “I’ve got the joy, joy, joy, down in my heart. (Where?) Down in my heart! (Where?) Down in my heart!” It made me sit a minute and wrestle with the word that’s held so much meaning for me this year. As I’ve shared…

On the Hunt for Lovely

Hi. My name is Amanda and I am Annie Downs‘ #1 fan. With every word she writes, I want to call her up and invite her to dinner because we have so much in common and I feel like we would be the best of friends. In a totally non-creepy way, of course. After finishing…

To Everything, Turn

I’ve let work “get in the way” of going to the gym lately. I blame the time change, how dark it gets at 4pm, how dreary it is in the mornings. My bag of excuses is endless. One of my new favorite podcasts is The Accidental Creative with Todd Henry. He recently interviewed James Clear,…

Got a Light?

I recall waking up with an air of excitement and gratitude. I even had a moment where I felt “I’m back!” But a few hours later, I found myself browsing my closet with familiar whispers saying, “Why bother? Nothing looks good on you.” The difference is I’m now equipped with an arsenal of comebacks. I…

Bending Over Breaking

A thought hit me this morning, half-way joking and wishing that I was struggling with an alcohol or smoking addiction instead. I know, I know. I’ve never struggled with either vice and I’m sure those who have would give me an earful, but allow me to explain. The term “quitting cold turkey” doesn’t apply to…